r H Y nolite

It's not what happens to a man, but how he perceives and acts on things that will determine how happy he'll be.

haha.. thanks!

i've been tempted today to write at length here, and yeah, i have succumbed once again into temptations.

so today, i will talk at considerable length about a few things going on in my life now: love, life, death, cars, motorcycles, shooting, design and family.

love.

love sucks. period.

hahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha

no really, i think i've not figured it out completely yet. and that irks me very much.

...


those three dots represent the three paragraphs i wrote prior to this line, which i have conveniently decided: 'well then, the world doesn't need to know this.'

yeahh, the wonders of the 'delete' button.

life.

i remember there was a point in my life where i wanted to have everything in this world. i wanted lots and lots and lots of money, lots and lots and lots of cars, lots and lots and lots of things in general.

but now, what is the point?

what is more important? happiness, or having lots and lots and lots of lots and lots and lots?

does it really boil down to really just happiness and lots and lots and lots of?

of course, suffice to say, my direction in life has changed, and its not that i have lost some goals and ambitions in life, but rather, i've shifted the direction in which my life is going. its very confusing how things are going now, and i'm getting confused just writing about it. hahahahaa

death.

yeahhh the big D. once again this topic will be the longest drawn part of the article.

if you've been reading my blog, or inquisitive ( =) ) enough to read my past entries, you'd know that i've always mentioned that i've been terrified of the grim reaper.

i admit, i was scared to leave this world. and i still am. i still think its not my time to go.

just the other day on the plane to bangkok, as the plane was getting ready to taxi onto the runway, i was overcome by the thought: 'hey. i'm 22 now.. another 8 years, i'm 30. then.. i'm 40... then.. i'm 50.. then... i'm 60!!!! then...!!!!!!'

yeah

then that all too familiar dream of lying on my deathbed came to me again.

all because i was sitting beside this really shabby looking middle aged man with messy white hair and unkempt facial hair. sheesh he looked so unhappy with his life as far as i could tell.

yeah, how fast life will pass you by eh. and in the meantime you're so busy with whatever you are doing right now, be it school or work, to allow yourself time to think about this.

are you prepared to die?

what is going to happen after you die...? i guess i can never figure that out, until i actually die.

but but but but but but i'm not ready to die yet. nononono. not at all ready.

i can't imagining going to sleep.... and that's it. that's all there is to hungyi. nothing left.

sigh. i think i ought to find a tree, sit under it, and contemplate this issue until i find a resolution. but then again, would i?

watched this movie 'the fountain' recently. starred hugh jackman and rachel weiss. in the movie, hugh jackman's character said: 'life's a disease, and i will find a cure for it.'

ahhahahahahahahahahaha

my thoughts exactly, put into a movie! somebody's been reading my blog!!!

cars.

cars. me dad bought a new honda jazz recently. and i realise something: i drive more dangerously than i ride my bike.

hahaha
how ironic.

argghhh another paragraph lost to superstition.
hahahahha

motorcycles.

i LOVE my wr200.

really. that's it.

nothing in this world beats sitting on your bike, going 90km/h, with the wind in your 'hair' and the sun on your 'back'.

pure liberation.

until some idiot comes from behind and threatens to take your life away.

argh. singapore drivers.

shooting.

well. shooting. what can i say...

it's still very much a mystery to me. so many things about it i still haven't figured out yet. so much to learn. so much to practice. so much to master.

SO

MUCH

FUN.

i have OCD, so nothing beats more than doing something over and over and over and over and over again.

hahahahaha.

design.

design is great too. i love industrial design. so much to learn and so much possibility to develop.

if i have time i will post some pictures of what i have done these three semesters. but not today.

i really do think: design is for me.

family.

I feel blessed to have my family. we're not rich, but we're not hungry too. we get along just fine, and have fun suanning each other. we don't worry about money and food, and thus we don't worry at all. that is a blessing in itself.

its a blessing to have a happy family.

and thus i'm determined that my family, when i actually get married and settle down, will be just as much fun as my family is.

haha

and can you believe i actually posted this before?

Friday, August 12, 2005

i will be the man of your dreams,
the only one you have ever wished for.
i'll fulfill all your hopes,
and make true all your wishes.

i will be the shoulder for you to cry on,
the one who will always be there.
there when you need me,
there even if you don't.

i will be the ear that will always listen to you,
the one who will share your highs and lows.
always ready to hear you out,
always there to take you out.

i will be your dream lover,
your one and only.
for only $50 per hour,
what are you waiting for?

91708293.

hurry. call now.

the funniest thing was: i actually had a call!

damn that was so long ago.

so fun.