r H Y nolite

Waiting
Hung Yi

To that girl I met today:

All these years I hoped and prayed
For this chance fate never gave.
All these years, everyday
I tell myself, today's the day.
That today's the day, that Chance
Fate and Lady Luck was on my side.

Or so I thought

Why does it seem, what was once the same
Has now gone in absolute opposites?
A bus I was waiting for,
A bus you alighted from.
Black was what I wore,
But on you, white I saw.

Did you know that there was white too on my mind?

It felt so good, to see you again
Yet so bad to think what is true again.
So sad to understand truth
Truth that is you never wanted to be.
"I'll catch up with you soon."
That's what you said.
That's what you said, so many times before!
That's what you said, that made me hope.
That made me wish, then made me cry.

Was I crazy, or was I blind?
Blind to see, life so unkind.
If such it was, what did this mean?
This cruel reminder: You never left my heart.

My heart it tells me
"One more try."
Yet my mind says
"You try no more."

That smile. That sweet sweet smile.

The smile that made me weep
Not in body but in soul.
Everytime, everytime
Everytime I see your smile.

I can't move on with life.
This life I so willing to share with you
Share with you this life
I cannot move on.
Ever since you read
"Tell me now, tell me true."
Ever since that day
I cannot move on.

You see, I am still me
Yet alas, you are but "married".
Is it true? I ask myself,
Maried such as is yourself?

It seems to me
That I never meant to you,
What you meant to me.
Did I matter? Did you care?
Did I say? Did you hear?

The letters I never sent you
The words I never said.
Letters and words that contained
That most difficult three-word phrase.

Did you know? Did you hope?
Did it matter?

Does it matter?

After all these years
Things remain the same.
I convince myself
That over you, I truly am.
Yet, for "I'll catch up with you soon"

For you, I'll forever be waiting.