r H Y nolite

in a really funny mood today..

alot of things are happening, but at the same time alot of things are NOT happening.

my guess is that latter is affecting me more than the former.

i feel like there's alot of things to do, but all i want to do is ride my bike.

but i can't. i can't just ride my bike and don't bother about everything else that's going on in this world.

yet.

if i don't ride my bike, there's nothing that motivating me to do the other things i 'need' to do.

on top of that, i feel like a loner now.

no friends to jio out for a drink. even if i had, i would be too lazy to bother to call them.

nobody calls me out for movies and shite anymore. what the hell is happening to my life man.

the only things that seem to be keeping me together are my bike. and my platoon.

but.

somehow i feel like there should be something *more* to my life right now.

but everybody says, 'army takes ur life away'

'army makes ur social circle smaller and smaller until it disappears'

'army makes u stupid'

'army makes u lonely'

'army takes away ur girlfriends'

'army takes away ur gay friends'

'army...'

army this army that, how true are all those?

or is it just something we.. I do to myself that leaves me in this situation?

i want to call somebody out for a drink or movie.

but when i look at my contacts, its pathetic.

oh my.

what's happening?

should i ride in the weekend?

i'm thankful for my platoon.

platoon 7 charlie company 5 sir 3 sib 3 div.

in the weekdays they are my source of both happiness and unhappiness.

but when the weekend comes, time is just so short to do everything i want to do in a weekend.

argh

what should i do?