r H Y nolite

after some deliberation i finally decided to write this about myself. not that anybody would bother, but at least it will become the place where i will go to remind me of how i am. maybe that would bring some consistency to my behaviours.


to myself,

your jokes are never funny. so don't tell them to anybody anymore.
keep them to yourself. and when people ask why you're laughing to yourself, shake your head,and keep laughing at your own private joke.

learn to save consistently. whats the point of saving two thirds of your salary only to blow it on one date. don't be generous when you have cash and stingy when you don't. find a moderation.

spend more time with your bike. she'll reward you for it.

its about time you get a girlfriend eh? maybe not. you ain't too ready for it yet. so chill dude. bike first girls later.

you've got a good ear, but you ain't got a good tongue. learn to speak, and speak coherently. when you do speak, speak with relevance not abstraction.

concentrate. work in camp may suck, but leave everything in camp. when you ride, think of riding. when you're watching a movie, think of the show. when you are out with friends, be out there with your friends not back in camp with your platoon.

take the time to know your platoon better. more interviews more serious talk less joking and clowning around. your guys are not coming to you to talk about their problems anymore. either that or they really have no problems anymore. ( to my platoon guys who are reading this, which do you think is true? )

get ready for what lies ahead in life. your enormous dreams and ambitions may not come true, but that shouldn't stop you from trying to achieve it.

think more of the universe, the world and the animals around you.

to my friends,

live in my present.

don't live in my past, for i will not remember you.

don't live in my future, for my future will never have you in it.

don't wait for me to make the first move. it normally doesn't happen. however this does not apply for alexis. riding is an exception i will always make.

if i do things that are rash or irrational, don't put me down. cause i may seem like i don't care, but i do.

if you will forget me, i will forget you.

but even if you don't forget me, i will still forget you.

i never forgive. i just keep mum.

i may not forgive, but i will forget. but if i forget, don't remind me. for if i am reminded, i never forgive.

don't lie to me. because if i ever find out, i never forgive.

i AM forgetful, but i dislike constant reminders. choose the right time and place to remind me, that would be enough.

i observe everything. but i keep mum.

when i offer to pay, you know i have spare cash, so don't reject my offers.

when i am stingy, you know i don't have cash, but i still will not ask you to pay.

to the people who do not know me.

i don't like you.

if it seems i don't like you, its true.

i don't like you.

i may seem like i'm not looking, but i am.

i don't like you.

i observe everything. but i keep quiet.

i don't like you.